Weird holidays =]

Lately din go work le..juz stay at home take care of didi lor. Sometimes reli bored. But lazy write blog..lols. Nowadays reli less sms le. Oso nobody find me. Hmm..she became more happy wifout me. Her cousin come back from Aus they had alot of fun. Im reli happy for her. Its been a long time tat i din see she so happy le lols..missed those times when we can talk nicely and jokes.

But last nite she hurt me agn. Her cousins went to Sibu for few days. She told me tat day. But i kinda 4got wat is the date when they go Sibu. Then i ask agn. And she get mad wif me. She say dun repeating the same questions. I dk wat wrong wif her. But i think i din do anything wrong. But at the end i accept my fault. Coz If she wants it to be my fault then i accept it. I told myself its ok. ITs not the 1st time =[

Asking the same question oso wrong? I juz 4got the date. Juz wanna care and ask. Now asking oso wrong. Maybe next time looking at u oso a crime. Maybe next time i wanna find u oso wrong. Totally not logic..hiaz.

I knw all these years i din do much for u. I always quarrel wif u. I accept the fault. All i wan is for u to be happy. I knw i dun have any chance le. But my heart is reli strong. I still hold on then the last hope. U hurt me so much and say so much hurtful words to me. I dk why i still go find u and smile to u. I wan to give up. But i cant 4get u.

If i can trade my life to take away the pain. I reli would. TT^TT
Maybe u juz treat love as a game bah. Maybe im stupid to believe so much =[

Broken Heart =(

Tat day my lover ask me juz be frens bah. I ask her why..she said she is getting sick of tis relationship. She dono she is ripping my heart out. I admit i dunwann accept her decision. I was feeling so sad and she juz take it like nth happen. Im So dissapointed in her.

I am so blur and i dono wat to do. When i miss her. i dun dare to find her. I scare i get hurt agn TT^TT
Haiz..tats all i dono wat tosay le.

Hope she give me a second chance T.T

Nth changed T^T

Yestuday i find my lover in sms. I tot few weeks din find her. She would change her bad attitude. But i tot wrong. Nth change =[
Yesturdya i reli sad..reli kek sim. She make me sad and hurt me juz by her actions and words. It reli hurt. T_T Piggy i reli still love u moh ='[ I juz cant find the feeling back. Pls dun fang qi on me hao ma? Help us find the feeling back pls TT^TT

Piggy, i knw u wanna study..i din force u tat u must be wif me now ma. i juz wanna love u and us both loving and caring moh. I reli scare tat when u form5 cant get good result and ur parents will think is me make u get confused and cant study well. T.T
I knw i fat le..and u think im not handsome. I oso din study well. But all i can give u is my love. Why piggy dun appriciate ne? piggy make willie reli sad knw?

If piggy think she dun have feelings for willie le and willie is not ur type juz tell me bah =(
Maybe like tat i can knw wat u wan. Now u dun tell me aynthing is like "throwing me in a big jungle and din give me any idea when some1 is gonna safe me or how to get out myself. U din give me any weapon or food" T^T

Piggy come back hao ma? dun be stabborn le moh =(
Come back to willie k? wuwu T_T
Willie miss uu~~~
wuwuwu~~
urh urh T-T

missing you

I din find her for 2 weeks le bah. She never send me msg or find me oso. Not even fb msg..hmm =[
Im begining to miss her T.T Sometimes i think of her my tears drop =[

Reli pek cek T_T

I juz read my lover's blog. I knw lately u r stress abt ur results and exam. Im sori tat i make u more stress. U still say my name in ur blog. Why? U reli changed alot. juz u cannot see ma. Last time u will jokes and sweet talks wif me. and sayang gud nite to me. Even we r in far distance and we din go pakto or wat. We oso feel happy. But after a few months. U seem like getting tired of me. Then u slowly stop everything.

U even stop the feelings tat u have for me. I reli sasd..u and me r 3 years plus de lover. Maybe for u is juz a puppy love. But i took it serius. I treat u like my mum told me how to treat a wife. But u keep putting a rock in the middle or the road tat we're walking.

since all those years i been try to make things better. I try not to lose u. No matter how bad we quarrel. I still will find u and say sori. But why u have to be so hen xing? U knw i love u and u still hurt me like tat. Im scare of love le. i scare to love so much and tat person wont appriciate T^T

Ur birthday is almost here. I juz wanting to plan a birthday by going wif u nia. Then u come and put the rock in the road agn. Its HEAVY!!! I cant move it myself u knw!!?

Friday afternoon..i went to Gym and force myself to do as as i can. My arm almost break. After so many enegry is used. I still thinki of u. When i look at ur pic. My tears jiu drop. I look at it and ask pls dun be like tis hao ma? I reli wish tat pic will answer me. but it din not.

Where is my dardar. Where is my piggy? TT^TT
come back come bcak i miss u!! =[
Willie still love u moh..wuwuwuwu T_T
Come back~~

Heart pain pain lur =[

Lately, my lover dun reli care abt me le. She been very cold to me. Sometimes she said many things tat hurt me real deep. But its ok..i 4give her. Coz she is my lover ma. But she never get to understand the pain in me.

sometimes i reli wanna to syang her and give her hapiness and let her feel my love. But she always spoilt my mood T^T Then she come and say me spoilt her study mood. Haiz..Im reli scare tat her mama will think tat im the reason tat makes her get poor results in exam.

If she keep being like tat to me i reli wanna pen kui le. I knw im not handsome and not rich i dun get good results. But at least i got a heart for u ma rite? everything i ask u smth abt us. U never give me a complete or real answer.

I ever try and give up on u. Tat time i reli hurt. I come back for u is coz i trust tat u can change for me and care abt me. I hope tat i din do the wrong choice T^T

Pls piggy, come back to me hao ma? i reli miss ur hug hug and gud nite smile and when u sayang me. I reli miss u..pls come back to me hao ma? wuwuwu TT^TT Willie promise to be guai..willie love u..wuwu ='(

Halo =]

Long long time no write blog de..well..now is the Hari Rya holidays..last few days i went to KL for travelling lor. It was fun..and nice..coz i long time no go travelling le. When the day i go. I told my lover tat im going to KL and im very happy. Guess wat she said to me? She said ok mai hao lian la. Tat word "hao lian" hurt me. When i went in the aroplan i keep clossing my eyes and think she wan to say like tat? she knw why im happy. She knw the problem tat i have tat makes me cant go trvelling for 7 years. Why she like tat? I almost cried but i did not..i control emotions.

When i reach KL..I text her and told her tat i reach KL le. and i been wanting to sms wif her for the whole morning and share my hapiness. But she reject me and said "u go have fun bah". Tats all she said. So i have no choice juz replied her "OK". Then i try to have fun while im there. But i missed her T_T She dk tat..haiz.

Tis morning i came back to KCH. I sms her the 1st thing i do in the morning. Then i on facebook and check a few things. Then I play my favorite on9 game(Maplestory) I saw her on9 and i was very happy. then i go play wif her and we play together. Then she suddently stop replied me when i talked to her. Then i ask her why? She say pek cek. Maybe its me coz i keep asking her out but she dunwan. But she say nth. Then i told her i dun bother her le. So i off. then i on facebook. I saw her on9 too..then i ask her if she is ok. She said "im ok" then i ask her wat happen she say nth. I sai ok [if u dun wanna say i oso cant force u. Then she juz off.

Haiz..Sometimes she is very caring and sweet and loving. but sometimes she juz very hard to understand =[ I reli wanna love her and sayang her. but sometimes she juz wanna make things hard =(

Haiz..I wish someday we will be happy and xin fu ^^ and our family all sihat and happy. Tat is all i wish for ='[

Haiz ='(

Long time no write blog le lor. Many things happy. Happy, Sad, Angry, Moody all type. But its passed. Hmmm~

2nite i asked my lover. Wat do u treat me as? juz a special fren or lover? I ask her tis coz she's been treating me colder and colder. She answer me both both. At 1st she tried to hide her real answer from me. Then i ask her the 2nd time. She told me the truth. I was having badminton training. After i saw the msg. My mood suddently down. Haiz..

She ask me dun be sad and dun think abt it. How can i dun think abt it? how can i dun be sad? If she's me and im her. She oso will be sad rite? Im reli hopeless and sad now.

Heartbreak~

I been falling in love on her since form1. Till now form4..Maybe last time i had a few time tat i reli wanna give up but i din. In form4 starting of the year i did something very hurtful to her. I dun mean it. I got together wif another girl. I reli dun like the girl so when im wif her my heart is wondering off.

I dono if she belive me or not. I juz hope she does. starting of the year till now i been trying my best to win back my lover's heart coz i knew i hurt her alot. But at the end( like now) WAT DO I GET? After so long suddently tell me tis. Haiz..

I dono Tomoro how im going to fake a smile and go to school. She asked me to smile 1 for her b4 we sleep. How do i smile? now i dono wanna cry or juz sit and dream while looking at de sky better. RELI BO SIM AND KEK SIM AR!!! TT^TT

WHY U WANNA LEAVE ME LIKE TIS? U DUN LOVE ME LE MA? WAT ABT OUR MEMORRIES? OUR LOVE? OUR HEART? OUR TEARS FOR EACH OTHERS? WAT ABT YOU? WAT ABT ME?

WUWUWUWUWUWUWU TT^TT
Nite nite =[

1st Day Wifout u =(

1st day wifout u =(
Starting to miss u le. Feel guilty for wat i have done to make u sad. Im sori piggy..i reli dono wats got in to me T_T

It reli dun feel rite. Feel like wanna call u in the phone but dun dare scare bother u. Wuwu =[

Not tat i dun trust u. Its i dun trust others. I will change and give u happiness k? I knw i made u feel very down. Im sori. Pls dun give up on me ok ma? I reli will try to change de. I oso wan we both happy together ma.

Piggy, I reli love u de. I miss u T_T
Pls come back to me hao ma? wuwu TT^TT

Dar, Willie sowie T.T

Im Blur ~.~"

Hmm..i long time no write blog le. Coz Everytime i write blog is coz im sad or moody. Lately my lover and me r very loving and happy. We play, jokes and sayang each others lor. I Feel very xin fu...Coz i knw i have to treasure all tis =]

Last nite my lover told me tat we r not couple. I cant accept coz it is very suddent. Coz i tot we love each other and sayang each other jiu mean we r lover n couple le ma. She say no..Coz she haven accept me. I heard le my heart melt too..haiz..

Suddently mind empty and dono wat to do. I dono why my lover dun be like me. Love each others jiu accept le ma. Even if u dun say out u put in ur heart oso can ma? I din even force u or anything rite? I knw ur papa mama dun allow. I oso scare ur papa mama knw then punish u or wat ma. But i never force u to date wif me or kiss or hug ma. Juz in phone..If u scare u can juz delete it ma rite? Hiaz T^T

we can say is together 4 years le bah. Even we din on so long rite? Why have to be so.......I dono how to say. I juz feel pek cek. Last nite i din sleep well. Im reli sensitive to wat u say de. last nite whole nite even when i sleeping. The words tat u say still in my mind.

I knw last time i did wrong. Im guilty...But i dun think im the only person hu done wrong. I din reli go love tat girl juz used her to 4get u. Why u dun understand and keep use her name and kek me.

All i wan now are we loving each other and sayang and care each other. And wait till after SPM then we plan to be togetehr. U told me see tat time 1st bah..Ngaitee..u knw i feel tat u planing to kick me out of ur life or wat. U dunwan we be together ma? u dunwan to love me after form5 le ma?

Today i go to KGS play..I dun think im going to have fun after tis...Haizzz @.@

Hmm =)

Halo =D
i so long no write blog le..lols..Maybe busy and no mood bah..
Hmm...many things happen lor. Tat day i use a girl to 4get my lover Coz tat time my lover treat me reli cold and i reli behtahan le..i keep wait and waitting. Then tat girl said she like me. I juz accept her lor. Then i tot i can use her to 4get abt the past. But im wrong. I oso hurt my lover very must. I can feel her feeling when she knw i got gf le. But i reli dun mean to hurt ur dear T.T
I feel reli guilty and sori to her even until now. Hiaz...i made a stupid mistake and im very very stupid to think smth like tat to hurt my dear..wuwu TT^TT

I know my dear 4give me and slowly believe me le. I still feel guity lor..I SO WISH TAT I CAN ERASE THE MISTAKE!! =( But tis is life...once done jiu stay there le. I juz hope my dear understand hy i did tat mistake. Im reli sori. I promiss myself tat i wont hurt u ike tat agn. If i do it agn..I jiu not count as a boy!!! I dare to promiss my dear too! My dear said i promiss le and din do for her. I dun mind it. Tis time im reli serius. I juz hope my dear can understand and try dun hurt me like last time le.

I use tat girl to 4get my dear. I din tell any1. I juz tell my dear. I reli regret..If i din do jiu wont hurt my dear so deep le...haiz

Last few days i go training for skul badminton and the teacher look down on me. He juz go and ask other ppl " eh, ur class got any1 knw how to play?" Then tat guy jiu say got. Then the teacher jiu like tat take tat guy and kick me. He din ever see tat guy play. Then tell me tat i not fit. tat guy more fit then put him in. I play wif my partner so long. How can cincai put another guy and ask my partner play wif tat guy...swt..no brain de teacher. TEACHER U KNW WAT IS PLAY BADMINTON DE MUO QI MA!!?

I so angry and stop the skul training. I dun even wanna see tat teacher face. Then my private training de teacher say dun give up. Ur skul teacher will regret 1day. I wil train u he said. Then i jiu wake up and say i can do it. WAUHAHA!! U WAIT LA TAT SKUL TEAHCER!!

HAHA..I sound abit rude and mean hor? Sori guys =) well, i juz got my report card back and all red red juz english blue..im so dissapointed at myself..I malukan my papa and mama face and myself de face..haiz. I wil try my best to get all past at least!

JIA YOU WILLIE! U CAN DO IT DE..HEHE xD
Tat's all for today guys.
Byebye =]

Is Everything Hopeless Le Ma?????

Tis few days i no mood lor =( No mood to do my homework no mood to focus in class and no mood to play around. Haiz..Sometimes my mama shout at me coz i din help her coz im tired. My lover dun love me le. I feel sad rli sad and dissapointed. Is it im ugly now? Why se dunwan me.

Last nite i ask her why keep let ppl waitting do u know its hard? She said then dun wait no1 call u wait leh. Ngaitee..so hurtful ar..haiz. Then she ask me "jump sea" ad said me myself crazy. I heard le tong zhai xin li T_T

I reli dun understand why things become so wosrt and she dunwan to make it better? She like things being like tat? =.=" Sometimes i listen to songs and think abt her and wat to do till i cry. I told her. She oso no feeling like u cry ur buiness la.

KEK SIM!!! RELI KEK SIM AR!!! WUWUWUWU =(
She told me to stop tis topic for few days, months or years. I know we bth r confused now. We dono wat to do. And u r very tired abt tis. Haiz..i dono wat to say.

When u love a person reli have to let her go find her own xing fu then we cai happy ma? Why many ppl say tis? Issit im selffish? I think abt i will sad only. I din think abt her?
Haz..i dono i dono wuwuwu T-T I juz wanna be happy wif my lover and enjoy life ma. I wan to love her wif all my heart. And be loyal to her and I wan us and our family be happy and sihat and eat de bao and sleep de hao jiu enuf le. Tat's all i wan moh wuwuwu =[

I juz wanna be happy and fins back myself. Wifout u im not myself anymore..
I wanna scream till every1 can hear me! I wan to run till my legs fulls out! I wan play badminton till my mucles crame! I wan to fa xia! urh urh urh! TT^TT

Hurt and Dissapointed lor =(

Hmm..school was ok lor. Teacher some sotsot but some very nice to us students. I got try to do every homework tat teacher give and try to focus and understand wat teacher teach lor. many of my close frens not same class wif me..But its ok. we still can meet each other on resess.

Haiz..from last year b4 PMr i keep sad sad.Coz my dear told me she wan to study and her mama dun allow her to have bf and she is dissapointed on love coz i ever hurt her very deep. Im sowie TT^TT

I know..i know now i say sry is too late. But i hope 1day she will 4give me and come back to me. I wish it come true..wuwu =( I been waitting for very long time she still not yet come back..Why ar? O.o" I miss her i miss when she cal me dardar and said nite nite to me. Wuwu T-T sad sad wor =(

Last nite i got argue wif her a little. I ask her why nowadays dun care abt me le? Why keep being cold cold to me.She juz said no idea. I ask her last time all the things we had don't matter to u ma. She told me she dunwan t hear tat question agn. Then i told her tat she will regret 1day for not treasuring me.

I dono i do like tis is wrong or not. I dun understand how can a person leave the person he/she love so much and go live he/her own lie happily and dun care abt the other half of them..Head pain pain wor =[

If somebody can help me i reli thanks tat person ^^ But my frens wont help me de la. They think im stupid. I oso think im stupid. They say me why u hve to be so susah for a girl only? beside u dun even know next time u r going to marry her or not.

I dono wat to say le. I juz wanna be happy wif my frens, my family and my lover. and be sihat every1and enjoy life tat's all i wan for my life =]