Is Everything Hopeless Le Ma?????

Tis few days i no mood lor =( No mood to do my homework no mood to focus in class and no mood to play around. Haiz..Sometimes my mama shout at me coz i din help her coz im tired. My lover dun love me le. I feel sad rli sad and dissapointed. Is it im ugly now? Why se dunwan me.

Last nite i ask her why keep let ppl waitting do u know its hard? She said then dun wait no1 call u wait leh. Ngaitee..so hurtful ar..haiz. Then she ask me "jump sea" ad said me myself crazy. I heard le tong zhai xin li T_T

I reli dun understand why things become so wosrt and she dunwan to make it better? She like things being like tat? =.=" Sometimes i listen to songs and think abt her and wat to do till i cry. I told her. She oso no feeling like u cry ur buiness la.

KEK SIM!!! RELI KEK SIM AR!!! WUWUWUWU =(
She told me to stop tis topic for few days, months or years. I know we bth r confused now. We dono wat to do. And u r very tired abt tis. Haiz..i dono wat to say.

When u love a person reli have to let her go find her own xing fu then we cai happy ma? Why many ppl say tis? Issit im selffish? I think abt i will sad only. I din think abt her?
Haz..i dono i dono wuwuwu T-T I juz wanna be happy wif my lover and enjoy life ma. I wan to love her wif all my heart. And be loyal to her and I wan us and our family be happy and sihat and eat de bao and sleep de hao jiu enuf le. Tat's all i wan moh wuwuwu =[

I juz wanna be happy and fins back myself. Wifout u im not myself anymore..
I wanna scream till every1 can hear me! I wan to run till my legs fulls out! I wan play badminton till my mucles crame! I wan to fa xia! urh urh urh! TT^TT

Hurt and Dissapointed lor =(

Hmm..school was ok lor. Teacher some sotsot but some very nice to us students. I got try to do every homework tat teacher give and try to focus and understand wat teacher teach lor. many of my close frens not same class wif me..But its ok. we still can meet each other on resess.

Haiz..from last year b4 PMr i keep sad sad.Coz my dear told me she wan to study and her mama dun allow her to have bf and she is dissapointed on love coz i ever hurt her very deep. Im sowie TT^TT

I know..i know now i say sry is too late. But i hope 1day she will 4give me and come back to me. I wish it come true..wuwu =( I been waitting for very long time she still not yet come back..Why ar? O.o" I miss her i miss when she cal me dardar and said nite nite to me. Wuwu T-T sad sad wor =(

Last nite i got argue wif her a little. I ask her why nowadays dun care abt me le? Why keep being cold cold to me.She juz said no idea. I ask her last time all the things we had don't matter to u ma. She told me she dunwan t hear tat question agn. Then i told her tat she will regret 1day for not treasuring me.

I dono i do like tis is wrong or not. I dun understand how can a person leave the person he/she love so much and go live he/her own lie happily and dun care abt the other half of them..Head pain pain wor =[

If somebody can help me i reli thanks tat person ^^ But my frens wont help me de la. They think im stupid. I oso think im stupid. They say me why u hve to be so susah for a girl only? beside u dun even know next time u r going to marry her or not.

I dono wat to say le. I juz wanna be happy wif my frens, my family and my lover. and be sihat every1and enjoy life tat's all i wan for my life =]