Wat is Happening ar?!! Heartbroken TT^TT

Today is school starting day..hmmm
Im not happy...last nite i can't sleep..turn here and there on the bed till 1.37pm cai sleep
Can't sleep lor..haiz...im sad...
I think alot...i think of u too
Im very confused T.T
I dono how come u so hen xing leave me and dunwan me..
It does not hurt u ma? T.T
If it does not hurts u. I have to tell u it hurts me alot..u know ma?
Wuwuwu TT^TT

Why u say tat u....And now u say u dunwan me T.T
Why u keep doing the same thing over and over?
Coz of wat? Tell me!!!
Issit ur mum? Or urself think too much? Haiiz

Im so sad and dissapointed and angry at the same time..i dono wat is happening..i dono wat to do...im like lose my path to my life...its reli hard for me..i told u everything tat i nid to tell u and u never make things better..u never tried
wuwuwuwuwuw T_T-T_T-T_T-T_T

It hurts to hurt u TT^TT

Why our gan qing become like tis?
Why can't we be happy together?
Why!!? Why!!? Why!!?

I dunwan to hurt u.
I dunwan to make u cry and sad.
I dunwan to make u angry..
All tis pain and bad memorries i dunwan all!!
I reli dunwan all of tis T.T
I dunwan...wuwu

If i know the future will be like tis i will choose to never know u.
Coz if i know u..u will get hurt. We both will get hurt T.T
I dunwan...wuwu
I rather be alonely and never hurt u...
I dunwan to see u cry coz i hurt u..
I wan see u cry coz i gan dong u =(

But tat is very very hard now T.T
After u tell me to let go.
Every nite b4 i sleep..i think of u..I think of everything...wuwu TT^TT
I think of wat u said to me over tis 3 years T.T
I think of wat i did to make u sad...
I dunwan all tis!!! I dunwan bah!!!!!

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wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuw(LOVE)uwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuw
wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu(YOU)uwuwuwuwuwwuuwuwuwuw
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Haiz =(

im reli confused..i reli am T.T
How come a person can bcoz of shyness and let go everything abt the person hu loves her?
How come u wont feel bad? How come u dun feel bu se de leh?

Coz u paiseh...u and me de gan qing jiu like tis no more..
Then how do i feel? How do u feel?
Haiz...Omg..i reli never see any1 like tis.
Im reli am very confused...
I dono u still like me or not..or u juz coz of paiseh say all the lie to me or wat..
I oso dono...i dono wat part is truth..i dono wat part is real..
I reli dono...pls dun play wif my feelings like tat T.T

I reli reli hope tat u can be more brave and tell me everything..seriusly..
I wan to know it from u heart not ur mouth...
When i never think of fang qi..u pi me pi till i wan fang qi..
Then tis is wat ai qing?
Issit all the time selffish rite?

Why like tis??
Why? WHY WHY???
i reli dun have other ways le...i reli wanna ask God to help me..
I reli wanna ask him why and wat is ur feeling and i can know everything .
So i will know wat to do..But i cant!!!!
i CANT!!! So u have to help me..u know ma??
HAIZZZ...i guess u always paiseh and shy...then everything will be ok ma?
U dun be brave still got hu can help u? hu? tell me?
U juz be like tis and dun try to be brave then everything can get better ma?
WTH!!!! im reli confused le...

Anything bah...u think urself...if u wan me..u come find me..u reli reli dunwan me..then i have nth to say le...coz nobody can help u if u dun help urself.
wuwuwu TT^TT

Haiz =(

I reli dono how ler!!!! =(

Tis few days im very confused wif life and thing tat i do.
I can't find any reason to do anything.
I juz wanna play i wanna have fun in my life.
I dunwan sad and angry..i dunwan confused.

My life oledi very confusing...
Plus u agn..i reli dono wat to do T.T
I know in the past i do alot of stupid thing some make u angry some make u sad.
I know now u dun have the feelings for me le.
But u said b4, maybe after me jiu very hard for u to have another guy le.
If like tat why dun u juz stay wif me. why dun u bring the feeling back le?

sometimes i think u tell me de thing and u said de is all say for song de.
But i believe tat some of it is real from ur heart.
But i juz dono which part is real T.T
Im reli confused and blur...i give up on PMR le...i give up on study le.
I reli dono wat i wan now

If u reli dunwan me get hurt...if u reli dunwan me sad coz of folo u and be ur lover then juz let me go..tell me tat u dunwan me.
Make my pain simple and fast...If u wan me jiu do ur best and show me.
Coz now i have no idea weather to give up or continue.
I feel reli reli scared in my heart...i beg u pls TT^TT

i reli reli dunwan juz be fren wif u TT^TT
I wan to be more then fren and buddy.
I wan de is ur love...
If u think 3 years of love not enuf then i still can give u more...
U juz have to give me another chance and work hard wif me to find the feelings back.

Haiz...i reli dono wat to say anymore...
I juz feel reli confused and sad....i dono why our love will become like tis.
Issit my fault? issit ur fault? i oso not sure...

GOD
I i juz ask for sometime tat i reli like in my life can ma?
1st thing i like is a girl from school. She is my 1st gf.
I reli love her. Pls God let be happy even if me and her dun have ending.
If we do have ending pls let her know tat all i nid from her is her heart and love.
Tats all i ask for...please God T-T

2nd thing i like is badminton...i reli do like badminton.
Coz everytime i sad or moody...i play badminton and i feel tat im in my own game.
I control the shuttle to where i wan it to go.
I dun feel lose..reli wan everything to be better..i juz dono how.
Pls help me God...pls...i believe tat everything will be ok de...rite ma?
Pls tell me rite!!!! wuwuwuwu TT^TT