HOW COME THINGS BECOME LIKE TIS ?!!

Yesturday i go out wif frens. We go walk walk and eat nia lor..me and my fren r ok le. I did not have fun at all. Haizz..Coz i keep on thining of my lover. I wan to pei her sms but my stupid phone rosak and whole afternoon cannot reply her. Hao cai she din angry or she juz dun care..I oso dono..and i dunwan to know.

Yesturday my lover go for musical evening. I din have chance to ask her how is it. then i think she busy packing things le. Nvm lor...tis morning i go view her blog..i know how is it le..she was nervous and some part she din play well. Nvm dear jy next time k? ^^

Then the sad thing is she saw a shuai ge and so happy. She never like tat de..haiz..Maybe she reli changed le bah. I dun have a place in her heart anymore. wuwu T_T sori, i reli cannot tahan not crying. WAtching ur lover going far and more far away from u and she changed is a painful feeling. I juz hope she knows my feeling. I juz hope she still read my blog nowadays. Haiyoh!!!

Tat day i quarrel wif my fren and all dun hiu me..then i find her. She oso dun even wanna care. Im so dissapointed. T.T She juz go a head and do her stuff. Haizz...i reli dono wat to do...feel like wanna fang qi myself le TT^TT

DEAR! I LOVE YOU!
PLS COME BACK TO MY SIDE SOON!!!
Im waitting for...you TT^TT

I had a reli reli bad year end holidays..hmm =(

Normally after exam every1 go creazy and happy. but im not happy at all. Coz i felt tat the more i grow up the more things i have to worry abt and think abt. =.="
Lately my papa and mama is not happy together..they always quarrel and then now they dun sleep together on the same bed even not the same room T.T
Me being the aldest son had to be very stress..i nid to an wei my mama ans help her in things..But sometimes i get tired and angry..haiz..i felt sori =( I wan my family to be happy and safe and "sihat". No matter rich or poor we r still a family..We can change the truth!

Then there was my frens. They all r diffrent from last time. Last time they respect me and always listen to every frens idea b4 doing anything. But now we all feel far apart. Last time we always go play badminton every saturday morning. happy, sad moody, angry we share. but i dun see it now. Haiz..

Then there was my lover. Haiz..say tiok my tears jiu drop TT^TT I love her wif all my heart. I try to protect her. But i use the wrong way. Im sori dear T.T I know i done many wrong things..but being a couple or lover must tell 1 another wat's wrong and wat we both think abt and not keep it to yourself and then an the end u bring everything out. Haizz..She hurts me alot in tis pass 2 months. If my other fren din an wei me and pei me through tis things..i think i oledi ben kui early ago le. =( Everytime when im not doing anything i jiu thin of her..i miss how she love me and sayang me and ask me to drink water or eat medician. I miss when she joke wif me in the phone and when i play and joke she play along too. I miss all tat TT^TT

But i know she dun love me anymore..I know watever i do she oso wont love me anymore. I oso have to accept tis sooner or later. It hurts..but can i do...nth..nth i can do le..wuwuwuww!!! T_T
I understand dear, i will slowly fang qi and go away if tat's wat u wan. Thank you for giving me a wonderful love story. even the ending is not tat good. But im happy tat u r my 1st gf TT^TT

Good Bye my Love T_T