So heart breaking T-T

Yesturday i juz find out smth tat is very hurtful to me.
I like tat girl for 2 years and almost coming to 3 years
She told me tat all th time till now. She never reli serious abt me.
She ask me y im so serius abt her.
I dono how to tell her..haiz...tis few days juz always get fan abt me and her.
I donoe why i so turely love her. But she treat me like tis T.T
Its reli hurt =( Tis is the more painful time she hurt me.

I know sometime i hurt her too....
But all plsu together not even more then wat she did to me T.T
Im reli xing ku sometimes. but all she do is think abt herself.
She treat her fren more better then she treat me.

Yesturday nite i ask her to ask ppl to help us solve problem.
She dunwan and tat time i oledi very very very beh tahan le..i oledi wan "boom" le!
She still joke wif me.
I told her if she dun help i wan go die le.
But she tot im joking. She say go la go la..when she joke wif me by tat.
For me i dun feel tat is a joke..im reli reli sad haizzzz

I dono y so long le..i din see tat she is juz not serius abt me.
I still remember last time i scold her i said
U r more wosrt then a dog.
Then she go school and ask her fren how do they feel if some1 said tat to them
Then after she ask she cried in front of her fren. I feel so sori to her =(
I reli wish i can take back tat words...
Tat time i reli tot she have me in her heart.
So i keep jia you and let her see i truely love her de.

But hu know she told me tat yesturday..My heart feel like juz drop down from 100+ building
Im reli dissaointed...im reli sad...im reli confused..im reli hopeless and meaning less..haizz
Noe she said sori to me in blog dun even dare to say sori to me by person.
So long le...got happy and sad and fun and angry de time together TT^TT
i do everything for her and gan dong her is truely from my heart.
I oso drop not less de tears for her. oso real de tears!!!
Now i wan cry oso no use. try to imaging my feeling now

Haizzz...suan le la TT^TT
Maybe we r juz not made to be..
Maybe we r not God wan de couple =(
Thank you for ur love so long and even its not real de..
Thank you God for letting me meet her and have so much happiness wif her =]